Eager eye and willing ear.

“Help me out here
All my words are falling short
And there’s so much I want to say”

—   David Gray - Please Forgive Me

Arcade Fire - Afterlife

I’ve gotta know

Can we work it out?
If we scream and shout ’till we work it out
Can we just work it out?
Scream and shout ’till we work it out?

But you say
“Oh, when love is gone
Where does it go?”
And you say
“Oh, when love is gone
Where does it go?”
We know it’s gone
But where did it go?
And where do we go?

I don’t have a choice but I still choose you

Ooh, I don’t love you but I always will

—   The Civil Wars - Poison and Wine

Frightened Rabbit - Poke

If someone took a picture of us now they’d need to be told,
That we had ever clung and tied
a navy knot with arms at night.

The Lyrics to the Song ‘Love Will Tear Us Apart’ Handwritten by Joy Division Frontman Ian Curtis

The Lyrics to the Song ‘Love Will Tear Us Apart’ Handwritten by Joy Division Frontman Ian Curtis

Do you want to go to Norway?

Tough.

Recently discovered: the poor impression I have left upon the mind of someone for whom I care deeply. It’s a regret to know my inability to step up at a crucial time will forever be the tale told when presenting the memory. What I wouldn’t give for the opportunity to be remembered as better equipped for the task. The truth can be bitter when you’ve caused offense. And regardless of apology or attempts to reconstruct a broken bond, my let down is a part of their history as well as my own. It’s odd to recognize the loss of tender feelings from a former intimate. If only I just didn’t care.

Note to self: best not to write matters that weigh on the heart in the middle of the night where proportion could very likely be blown out the window. Even if there is a therapy in writing thoughts others won’t view.

Query: have I always been so cheerlessly sappy? How exhausting.

Rogue Wave - Eyes

Missed the last train home.
Birds pass by to tell me that I’m not alone.
Well I’m pushing myself to finish this part,
Can handle a lot,
But one thing I’m missing…is in your eyes.

In your eyes.

Have you seen this film?
It reminds me of walking through the avenues.
We’ll be washin’ my hands of attachments, yeah,
land on the ground, one thing I’m missing…is in your eyes.

In your eyes.

Bach~Bist du bei mir - YouTube

Bist du bei mir,
geh ich mit Freuden
zum Sterben und zu meiner Ruh.
Ach, wie vergnügt
wär so mein Ende,
es drückten deine schönen Hände
mir die getreuen Augen zu!

“I got rid of my injured feelings for the time, by kicking them into the brewery wall, and twisting them out of my hair, and then l smoothed my face with my sleeve, and came from behind the gate.”

—   Charles Dickens - Great Expectations